cat scans & lab reports

cat scans & lab reports

Another, more sensitive scan has been developed: infra red imaging of breast tissue which will catch signs of potentially cancerous tissues much earlier on in the disease process. Breast tissue is very dense nowadays apparently (polite way of saying we ladies are getting fatter?) This can only be a good thing created by researchers at addenbrookes hospital, surely?

It will only be offered privately as NIHCE has decided that there are enough effective screening methods already available on the NHS. Only about 25% of breast cancer occurs in the under 50s anyway so it wouldn’t make financial sense to roll out this scan to the general population. People with a family history of breast cancer would be able to ‘go private’ and pay for the more sensitive scan themselves.

This seems eminently fair. But i am coming at this from a slightly different angle to the general population. I have ms and since hearing of CCSVI in August of last year have been trying to get a referral in order to get a scan of the veins leaving my head. Doppler ultrasounds, CaT scans and MRVs are used every day on people with vascular issues – those who’ve had heart attacks those who are at risk of furred up arteries (due to their smoking/eating/exercise choices?) and those members of the population who have ’congenital issues’ relating to the flow of their blood. But apparently, if those members of the population also happen to have ms they're not allowed a look inside their own bodies. We have an immunological disorder and so, therefore have no need to look at our veins.

Discussing the worthiness of this ‘immunological’ conclusion deserves a post of its own so we’ll leave that particular story of mice alone for the moment.

very wary

Like many other people living with a lifelong condition I try to give my body as easy a time as possible – do the sorts of things that, in our heart of hearts, we all know our lives may be easier if we did them. But coming from good, sturdy northern European stock it goes against the grain to deprive oneself of ‘joy enablers’.

‘I’ve been working hard all week – I’ve earned this extra drink/bar of chocolate/ice cream/curry/bucket of southern fried chicken skin/bucket of ice cream/4 fingers/bottles/crates of favourite liquor’ (name your particular poison)

Thing is: it’s more than hard to rewire the thought processes/coping mechanisms that lead you to reach for the ‘one last...’ the difficulty comes from the need to keep a ‘constant vigil’ over one’s actions. Mindfulness: it seems we’re encouraged to believe is an eastern trait and not something for hearty anglo saxon stock to concern themselves with. In fact, if folk do employ mindfulness in their daily life we eye them with a certain amount of suspicion. I’m curious as to why should be, even whether it actually is (rather than just being a product of my hungover/fevered brain in this oppressively close summer heat. Awareness isn't a dirty word.

http://www.essentialvermeer.com/catalogue/little_street.html I find vermeer paintings can encourage a stillness in me when i look into them. For a moment I can switch off whatever else is going on around me.